photographic insanity.

i have just spent the better part of 2 days and nights researching cameras and photography material. geez louise. i stayed up all night reading up on my beloved D3! as well some himalayan medical problems you might encounted at high altitudes. high altitude pulmonary edema anyone? or third degree frostbite..

let the impulsivity begin! i actually am tolerating thoughts of a possible explorational in the world of mounteering, take it up through the year, cimb k2 after As, enter into NS as an icecube. though that might not be possible thanks to the moonsoon season and blistering snow storms. apparently peek everest traffic is during may, when moonsoon season is gone. of course all these ideas which result in delusions of grandeur, also result in bills of grandeur, which result in solutions of grandeur. while you get the point. i had this bright idea that maybe i could find a scientific exploration team heading up to everest peak or something, and tag along as the photographer's intern(and pray to the lord, nikon sponsored them with D3s.. canons are icky)

omt all my delusions somehow have photography in it. i'm going insane, i found my dad's old f-801, the camera i was nurtured on. think camwhoring before it was hip. still has seven exposures left in it. i wonder how old the film is? it's like scary to think that i haven't used it since sec 4 or so and i know it's a kodak iso100 film. david loves his iso100. and i was only looking through the dry box for a prime lense or something. i really don't mind moving back into manual photography or film. i love the focusing on the subject and not the camera. i admit it's cool to preview your photos, but there's no point really, since on stupid 1.5" screen i can't see anything and everything appears darker than it usually is. oh photo-bable-ness. what am i going to do.

i have made approximate estimations to GUESTIMATE(it's a real word folks) how much a D3 will cost me.
roughly $11,000. beat that! my dream alienware computer didn't even come close to that.(try it, go to www.alienware.com and customize your computer to the way you want it)
D3 body, $7500 smackers.
3 new 8gb sandisk extreme IV cards 900 thereabouts. nothing beats sandisk for CF, the d3 has a dual cf slot, so one cf's gotta have company..
2 or 3 new lenses. a 50mm prime and the new 24-70 sounds good costing many monies. camera is full frame after all.. my d70kit lense is dx and won't work it...very well.
a new harddrive. at least 320gb ext. $150 i heard.
portable camera harddrive. the damn thing guzzles megabytes like irish do guiness. i read somewhere each raw file is huge at least 8 times the size of my current files. and i only have 20gb left on my damn comp..
and i might as well throw in a imac. imaging goodness.

or i could just spend half the price and get into the film medium format biz.. that's another option medium format film is more or less 50megapixels, and more worth it for the type of work i like to do, portraits and abstract stills. not sports. though it fails in flexibility for spontaneity required for spur of the moment portraits or wildlife. it's a studio camera. duh. dad i want a medium format hasselblad. i gonna get smacked.

for all of you who have no clue of what i speak/type. head down to plaza singapura, check level 3 or 4, they have medium format camera shop there. if i'm not wrong, my iedetic memory says they have quite a good display of what looks likes mamiya cameras. you'll never afford one but do take a look. they have a few hasselblads too. many many thousands of dollars. but hey, you gotta spend money to spend more money after all. look at doctors, operating theatres don't come cheap and neither do scapels, clamps, those huge bright lights, and the sterile needles that sew you up.

anyway i digress, a lot. there's a hasselblad h3d, on ebay at 42 grand. 39megapixel goodness. sheer madness, i wonder what the file size for a raw would be. i'd hate to wonder what large format digitals cost. professionality is really exclusively maddening.

the time, training, and experience required to specialize. the amount of time then required to become recognised. see it's really important to choose the right career before you get sucked into that downward spiral of exclusivity. A doctor has no more time to retrain(you're nearly 30 by the time you get your speciality).

i hate this hyperfocused. i'm so engrossed, i only stopped reading and reading to eat tea and lunch today, and i have yet to even glance through any of the books i've been given. the founding pap members and jamie are still in their plastic wrappings and the bartending book hasn't been thumbed. sheesh i'm going crazy. CRAZY I SAY. oh god it's almost morning